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life has a strange way of giving you what you want,
I begged for you to make the choice for me
for me to walk away without question.

damaged, that was just an understatement.

Although the want for a choice to be made for me
I wished
wished, that you would be the one to
to change this former optimist back to natural form, 

possibilities, chances and first loves
proved to be my constant disappointment 
and a constant self doubt in all forms.

The past is a great teacher of future outcomes,
 my pessimistic view turned
to a realist perspective

Everyone is in it for themselves,
one life lesson, yet to be proven wrong